It began as work, as words,
an exchange of ideas
made possible by the blind eye
of technology.

His intelligence conjured an image
that did not correspond
to the one I searched for
and found on the faculty page,
the dark eyes, the long hair,
both so easy to imagine myself lost in—

a beauty so completely his,
he chose to hold his kitten for the photo.

When it was time to meet

months later,
loose ends needing to be tied,
I traveled across the country
with a gut full of butterflies
to share a conference room
on the twenty second floor
with those who would approve
of our creation, and agree
that our minds had coalesced
into something just right.

Afterward, we filed into the large elevator
and as we waited for it to fill, descend,
he silently took my hand
and stepped back into the corner,
making room, making it clear

with such a pained expression

that he felt what I felt
as he pulled me gently
against his height,
a private confession in such a public place—

that first and last time
we would ever meet or touch
before returning to our changed
unchangeable lives.

There isn’t a word in the universe
that could name what we created.
Not a single word that could carry the weight
of that goodbye.

DeMaris Gaunt


Published by demarisgaunt

I currently live in Greenwood, Indiana. I love to listen to music, books on CD, podcasts or NPR as I work in my studio.  My favorite artists are Andrew Wyeth and Edward Hopper. I love poetry, but only the good stuff that isn’t so abstract I can’t understand it. Abstraction better lends itself to visual art, I think. Stephen Dunn is my favorite poet. He’s said just about anything that can be said about the inner workings of the heart and mind. My favorite novel is Atonement by Ian McEwan. My all time favorite band is The Cure. I love science, and anything that relates to how the mind works. I don’t believe in the supernatural. If I could meet anyone in the world, it would be Richard Dawkins or Steven Pinker. If you don’t buy my art or read my poetry, buy one of their books. It will enrich if not change your life.  My favorite things to do are hiking, kayaking and camping. My favorite food is so common, I’ll keep you in suspense (It starts with a P). I prefer chocolate to vanilla. Green is my favorite color. I have an aversion to planning or scheduling of any kind, and I live for spontaneous adventures! Telephone conversations make me anxious, and I avoid them at almost all cost. I had a happy childhood. I’m having a pretty fantastic adulthood. I have every intention of seeing my 100th birthday, after which I will happily relinquish my guts to the future of medicine. Cheers! ~DeMaris

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