National Suicide Prevention Lifeline ~ 1-800-273-TALK(8255)

You’ve memorized the phone number
even though it’s only been three days
since things went south—
since it was made clear to you
how much better things would be if only
you were someone else.
If only you didn’t cause so much embarrassment
by posting so often on Facebook.
If only you’d stop asking everyone
if they were comfortable and warm enough—
and what the fuck are you doing
posting your shitting poetry online?

You don’t know how to sleep now
with your head full of hot fizz and pressure
like a vice grip squeezing you into knots.
The fetal position isn’t what it used to be,
and neither is this life you’d been enjoying
so well until now—
this moment you realize your heart
is hacked up on the light beige carpet,
almost out of reach.
And the phone is a tool that could pry open
the darkness of your despair, but—
the battery dies because you’re the kind of person
who doesn’t prepare for the future—
and all of a sudden you no longer have one.


DeMaris Gaunt

Photo Credit:
Dean Rogers

Published by demarisgaunt

I currently live in Greenwood, Indiana. I love to listen to music, books on CD, podcasts or NPR as I work in my studio.  My favorite artists are Andrew Wyeth and Edward Hopper. I love poetry, but only the good stuff that isn’t so abstract I can’t understand it. Abstraction better lends itself to visual art, I think. Stephen Dunn is my favorite poet. He’s said just about anything that can be said about the inner workings of the heart and mind. My favorite novel is Atonement by Ian McEwan. My all time favorite band is The Cure. I love science, and anything that relates to how the mind works. I don’t believe in the supernatural. If I could meet anyone in the world, it would be Richard Dawkins or Steven Pinker. If you don’t buy my art or read my poetry, buy one of their books. It will enrich if not change your life.  My favorite things to do are hiking, kayaking and camping. My favorite food is so common, I’ll keep you in suspense (It starts with a P). I prefer chocolate to vanilla. Green is my favorite color. I have an aversion to planning or scheduling of any kind, and I live for spontaneous adventures! Telephone conversations make me anxious, and I avoid them at almost all cost. I had a happy childhood. I’m having a pretty fantastic adulthood. I have every intention of seeing my 100th birthday, after which I will happily relinquish my guts to the future of medicine. Cheers! ~DeMaris

5 thoughts on “National Suicide Prevention Lifeline ~ 1-800-273-TALK(8255)

  1. Am I okay? I’m having a hard time right now, but I’ll recover. Is there anything you can do? You just did it. Thanks for your concern and your kindness. XOXO. Any kindness right now is sucked up with the exuberance of a child with a brand new swirly straw! 😉

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    1. I’m a long way away, and not much use, but I do care, and I do appreciate your poetry. I love the image of the swirly straw too! All the best! . 🙂

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