Coming Home

After a few days
of chauffeuring my dad around
after outpatient surgery
I come home
exhausted
I sit down on the living room floor
to take off my shoes
I lay back
and think about the video I watched earlier
a relic from the past
sent to my dad
by a cousin I haven’t seen in 20 years
it showed both my parents
before they were 20 years old
laughing on the couch
in my grandparent’s living room
my dad smiling like happiness
was a new discovery
and then he leaned over to kiss my mom
and she acted embarrassed
pushed him away
smiling
because she knew
he wasn’t going anywhere
even though I know now that he did
go somewhere else for a while
after their marriage turned
into something he didn’t recognize
a few years after I was born
and after I am done staring at the ceiling
I turn my head toward the couch
where I once kissed a man I loved
and happiness felt like a new discovery
but he
like my father
was only taking a break
from the life he really wanted
the life he said he didn’t want to return to
the life he returned to
the life he is living
right now.

*****


DeMaris
11-6-2020

“High Noon” by Edward Hopper, 1949

Published by demarisgaunt

I currently live in Greenwood, Indiana. I love to listen to music, books on CD, podcasts or NPR as I work in my studio.  My favorite artists are Andrew Wyeth and Edward Hopper. I love poetry, but only the good stuff that isn’t so abstract I can’t understand it. Abstraction better lends itself to visual art, I think. Stephen Dunn is my favorite poet. He’s said just about anything that can be said about the inner workings of the heart and mind. My favorite novel is Atonement by Ian McEwan. My all time favorite band is The Cure. I love science, and anything that relates to how the mind works. I don’t believe in the supernatural. If I could meet anyone in the world, it would be Richard Dawkins or Steven Pinker. If you don’t buy my art or read my poetry, buy one of their books. It will enrich if not change your life.  My favorite things to do are hiking, kayaking and camping. My favorite food is so common, I’ll keep you in suspense (It starts with a P). I prefer chocolate to vanilla. Green is my favorite color. I have an aversion to planning or scheduling of any kind, and I live for spontaneous adventures! Telephone conversations make me anxious, and I avoid them at almost all cost. I had a happy childhood. I’m having a pretty fantastic adulthood. I have every intention of seeing my 100th birthday, after which I will happily relinquish my guts to the future of medicine. Cheers! ~DeMaris

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