Something Sharp

You can’t sleep
when you’re suffering
so you lay in the silent dark
for a long time
get up
realize suffering has followed you
into the kitchen
pre-dawn darkness
all around you
except for the singular yellow glow
of an old lamp
that used to sit on the piano
at your parents’ house
when you were growing up—
and there is nothing inside you
that feels okay
but there is comfort
in the memory of the piano
now gone—
all those hours you practiced
knowing your mom
was probably suffering too,
about something,
but she tolerated the music
that was not quite good,
praised you anyway,
encouraged you to keep practicing,
to finish the song,
to sing—
and you’re trying so hard
to pull something sharp
out of your chest—
something shaped
like the silence of your mother
which has impaled you
with the knowledge
you are an orphan
suffering for the first time
without her reassurance
that you are doing a good job —
that everything, somehow,
will be okay.


“Playing the Piano” by Ernest Higgins Rigg (1897 – 1932)

Published by demarisgaunt

I currently live in Greenwood, Indiana. I love to listen to music, books on CD, podcasts or NPR as I work in my studio.  My favorite artists are Andrew Wyeth and Edward Hopper. I love poetry, but only the good stuff that isn’t so abstract I can’t understand it. Abstraction better lends itself to visual art, I think. Stephen Dunn is my favorite poet. He’s said just about anything that can be said about the inner workings of the heart and mind. My favorite novel is Atonement by Ian McEwan. My all time favorite band is The Cure. I love science, and anything that relates to how the mind works. I don’t believe in the supernatural. If I could meet anyone in the world, it would be Richard Dawkins or Steven Pinker. If you don’t buy my art or read my poetry, buy one of their books. It will enrich if not change your life.  My favorite things to do are hiking, kayaking and camping. My favorite food is so common, I’ll keep you in suspense (It starts with a P). I prefer chocolate to vanilla. Green is my favorite color. I have an aversion to planning or scheduling of any kind, and I live for spontaneous adventures! Telephone conversations make me anxious, and I avoid them at almost all cost. I had a happy childhood. I’m having a pretty fantastic adulthood. I have every intention of seeing my 100th birthday, after which I will happily relinquish my guts to the future of medicine. Cheers! ~DeMaris

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