The Four-Year Affair is Finally Over

How about a little toast
tonight
to the winner
to the one I loved
longed for
languished over
these past four years
wow
what a performance
what a splendid
remarkable
sadistic
feat of endurance
to twist my hope into a knot
so tight
I bled internally
as I waited
and all the while I waited
I believed
was made to believe
the outcome
was going to be us
together
but the truth was so wicked
simple
it felt complicated
as if there was going to be
a change
a revelation
an announcement
any day now
as soon as the wrinkles
were ironed out
but the iron
was never turned on
there was no ironing board
no intention
on the part of my lover
to do anything
but lie for so long
he knew
he would finally
win the prize of my retreat
without once
getting his hands dirty
with the truth
or feel responsible
for the wreckage
he witnessed
with narcissistic pleasure
from his sunroom couch
as he sipped his tequila
straight




DeMaris
6-19-2021

Published by demarisgaunt

I currently live in Greenwood, Indiana. I love to listen to music, books on CD, podcasts or NPR as I work in my studio.  My favorite artists are Andrew Wyeth and Edward Hopper. I love poetry, but only the good stuff that isn’t so abstract I can’t understand it. Abstraction better lends itself to visual art, I think. Stephen Dunn is my favorite poet. He’s said just about anything that can be said about the inner workings of the heart and mind. My favorite novel is Atonement by Ian McEwan. My all time favorite band is The Cure. I love science, and anything that relates to how the mind works. I don’t believe in the supernatural. If I could meet anyone in the world, it would be Richard Dawkins or Steven Pinker. If you don’t buy my art or read my poetry, buy one of their books. It will enrich if not change your life.  My favorite things to do are hiking, kayaking and camping. My favorite food is so common, I’ll keep you in suspense (It starts with a P). I prefer chocolate to vanilla. Green is my favorite color. I have an aversion to planning or scheduling of any kind, and I live for spontaneous adventures! Telephone conversations make me anxious, and I avoid them at almost all cost. I had a happy childhood. I’m having a pretty fantastic adulthood. I have every intention of seeing my 100th birthday, after which I will happily relinquish my guts to the future of medicine. Cheers! ~DeMaris

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