Balancing Act

Been so raw
bare
irritated by disappointment
I want to yell
about ____________
but I am too aware
of the color of my skin
so I come to this white page
purge
been so let down
forgotten
left behind
I want to complain
about the way ____________
but I am too aware
that my bank account
hasn’t been red
for three years now
so I come to this blank page
purge
been so heartbroken
back-burner-ed
lost
I want to scream
about the way he ____________
but I am too aware
of my privilege
so I come to this empty space
purge
I want to rage
about ____________
but my good fortune
gives me no grounds
to write about hardship
so here I am
adding these words
to my pile of sorrow
that includes
no social injustice
remind me
please
that this too shall pass
into history
into tomorrow
into another day
that will never
include everything
I ever wanted
days that will include
abundance
bounty
plenty
enough—
even if
his body his eyes his name
his love
isn’t renewed this year
and will never again be mine
to add to the long long
long long list
of blessings
I sometimes forget to count.








DeMaris
10-19-2021

Published by demarisgaunt

I currently live in Greenwood, Indiana. I love to listen to music, books on CD, podcasts or NPR as I work in my studio.  My favorite artists are Andrew Wyeth and Edward Hopper. I love poetry, but only the good stuff that isn’t so abstract I can’t understand it. Abstraction better lends itself to visual art, I think. Stephen Dunn is my favorite poet. He’s said just about anything that can be said about the inner workings of the heart and mind. My favorite novel is Atonement by Ian McEwan. My all time favorite band is The Cure. I love science, and anything that relates to how the mind works. I don’t believe in the supernatural. If I could meet anyone in the world, it would be Richard Dawkins or Steven Pinker. If you don’t buy my art or read my poetry, buy one of their books. It will enrich if not change your life.  My favorite things to do are hiking, kayaking and camping. My favorite food is so common, I’ll keep you in suspense (It starts with a P). I prefer chocolate to vanilla. Green is my favorite color. I have an aversion to planning or scheduling of any kind, and I live for spontaneous adventures! Telephone conversations make me anxious, and I avoid them at almost all cost. I had a happy childhood. I’m having a pretty fantastic adulthood. I have every intention of seeing my 100th birthday, after which I will happily relinquish my guts to the future of medicine. Cheers! ~DeMaris

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