Today your love was like a phantom limb. It saved me, caught me after a fall. The house painter I hired in August was supposed to be finished by the end of September but kept postponing delaying rescheduling and here it is the end of October and the call came again— a total resignation this time which felt like a slap in the face of my ongoing patience and understanding especially since he had 40 5-star reviews online for quality value and, get this, punctuality. But he feels bad, he said— feels like someone else might be able to serve me better. My deposit will be refunded promptly, he swears— like all those times he assured me it wouldn’t be much longer. And this situation might on another day in another mood cause me distress in myriad ways but today I’ve been thinking of how it felt when you loved me— the way nothing not even this catastrophic-seeming inconvenience could possibly matter or distract or scratch or dent or tarnish the solid priceless perfection of our life together or our love which I still sometimes feel wrapped securely tightly around me.
I currently live in Greenwood, Indiana. I love to listen to music, books on CD, podcasts or NPR as I work in my studio. My favorite artists are Andrew Wyeth and Edward Hopper. I love poetry, but only the good stuff that isn’t so abstract I can’t understand it. Abstraction better lends itself to visual art, I think. Stephen Dunn is my favorite poet. He’s said just about anything that can be said about the inner workings of the heart and mind. My favorite novel is Atonement by Ian McEwan. My all time favorite band is The Cure. I love science, and anything that relates to how the mind works. I don’t believe in the supernatural. If I could meet anyone in the world, it would be Richard Dawkins or Steven Pinker. If you don’t buy my art or read my poetry, buy one of their books. It will enrich if not change your life. My favorite things to do are hiking, kayaking and camping. My favorite food is so common, I’ll keep you in suspense (It starts with a P). I prefer chocolate to vanilla. Green is my favorite color. I have an aversion to planning or scheduling of any kind, and I live for spontaneous adventures! Telephone conversations make me anxious, and I avoid them at almost all cost. I had a happy childhood. I’m having a pretty fantastic adulthood. I have every intention of seeing my 100th birthday, after which I will happily relinquish my guts to the future of medicine.
Cheers! ~DeMaris
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