Allegory of the Fence

It’s been two years since the storm took down the tree which broke off the top rail of a six foot section of fence that surrounds the large field where the brown horse stands in all weather watching the birds and the mice and roaming slowly along the perimeter grazing on what it must knowContinue reading “Allegory of the Fence”

The complete and total irrationality of the bullshit proposition that there is something beyond the reality of personal choices that put up road blocks we can’t possibly step over or around

You say Karma is the reasonis the whyis the answer to my question —according to your logicit’s why I’m paying the pricesuffering the consequence of my actionsmy honestymy truthmy plea to the one personwho might have given us her blessingand nowshe might as well be the god you pray tobecause you’re waiting for an answerthatContinue reading “The complete and total irrationality of the bullshit proposition that there is something beyond the reality of personal choices that put up road blocks we can’t possibly step over or around”

Awaiting Test Results

I wake up and open the window shade to let in the gray damp morning and two deer linger in the rusty leaves— a buck standing beside a doe, who is still curled below the hemlock. I wonder if she is his doe— if they are a couple— if they are just getting to knowContinue reading “Awaiting Test Results”

Don’t Believe Me

Constantly I lie I say things I don’t mean I say don’t worry about it I say no worries I say I understand I say it’s okay, I’m okay I say I’m fine I say I can wait I say I don’t mind if you put me on hold         DeMaris 9-18-19Continue reading “Don’t Believe Me”

Let’s Try This Again

I am here alive numb failed mother failed wife cheater the other woman mother fucker cock sucker home wrecker raw wild unpredictable honest to a fault poet communicator capturer of nature nurturer I am alone lonely a loner lost in the fist of poverty caged by fear ugly stupid to believe him to believe inContinue reading “Let’s Try This Again”

Up in the Air

“I’m too shy” you said, with a vulnerability any 10 year old boy would only show his mother. And new to the neighborhood, who could blame you for imagining the humility of rejection if the boy down the street didn’t want to come out and play and make a new friend, which is what youContinue reading “Up in the Air”

Imaginary Birds

I’m looking into the sky hoping I never see what I imagine as large foreign birds black bodies with elaborate red tails and streamlined yellow wings soaring high and then diving headlong into millions of futures they were sent to disable and destroy.             DeMaris 11-30-17

The Dawn of Man

The stick. How long did it lie on the ground before some freshly-human being picked it up and reached into the tree with an astonishing new arm— straight and long with an accurate aim? The fruit fell down. How long before it caught on— until everyone else saw the sense in it? The way itContinue reading “The Dawn of Man”

Certainty 

I don’t know what love is— if, when it’s new it isn’t a perfectly irrational urgency to end the day exhausted after digging into and exploring a capacious mind and perfectly imperfect body that contains a beating heart that shares this mania and this wish to be consumed by what could only be known asContinue reading “Certainty “