I Still Feel It

A little differently. A little less. This is how I love you now— now that time has made a fool of us, of me, of you, you, who loved me as completely as I loved you— but you couldn’t find a way to undo unravel untangle the bramble of every choice you made before yourContinue reading “I Still Feel It”

Saturday Night Party Game

Couples, singles, friends— an old house immersed in soft music without voice. It is the season of sweaters of fires in fireplaces of colorful wines in long-stemmed glasses small squares of cheese on round crackers olives that taste like you’re in fine company— a group of respectable achievers you admire for reaching the top withContinue reading “Saturday Night Party Game”

Winter Warmth

Winter Warmth The heavy snow stops everything— traffic work school construction lunch dates birthday parties doctor appointments big plans airplanes— but the heavy snow doesn’t stop your mind from running full speed two years into the past when you spent a couple February nights sliding into bed beside a man who loved you so muchContinue reading “Winter Warmth”

Temporary Housing

Temporary Housing After he moved back in temporarily after he sold his house and was looking for a new one we went right back into the routine that I once found claustrophobic tedious   boring never quite oppressive. But the years apart informed methat the routine would follow me anywhere— that no one else wouldContinue reading “Temporary Housing”

My Best Damn-Good Advice

My Best Damn-Good Advice I believe now is the time when my experience and hard-won understanding permit me to say to the young: don’t ever ever under any circumstances fall in love and expect it to last survive look feel taste like the perfection you never believed you’d find. I assure you— love can surviveContinue reading “My Best Damn-Good Advice”

American Contrarians

American Contrarians Understand why we don’t understand.We are full-belliedwith a refrigerator full of greens and meats,most of which will be shit-cannedafter the expiration date stings us with the reminder that, once again,we failed to live responsibly— failed not to waste almost everything. Still, we commit to making the worlda slightly better place.There are two carsContinue reading “American Contrarians”

Peace Day

It is the first day without a pulsing hope that one day soon we will have a joyous reunion— a longed-for embrace on the bank of the small creek running through the woods where we first met. Somehow it doesn’t hurt like I thought it would— I suppose, because nothing has changed in our proximity—Continue reading “Peace Day”

Choice

Oh miserable universe— proof that beauty is not created by a god— a god who could will into everyone a joy unspeakable, unalterable if that is how he chose to wield his power— instead it is the blistering ordinary of any given day that crushes us beneath its promise to be all we can everContinue reading “Choice”

Perspective

A man swings alone in the park beside the library. I wonder why he’s there. The parking lot is empty. The library doesn’t open for another hour. I put Malcolm Gladwell in the drop box. He’s been helping me understand the misunderstood. He’s given me 6 hours of perspective on how we see things incorrectly.Continue reading “Perspective”

Fairy Tale

The atheist pretends for a moment that he has a soul shaped like a heart given to him before birth by Yahweh or Zeus or Baal— it doesn’t matter who is responsible for this flat Valentine— it’s his to keep or give away or cut into pieces like confetti falling from grace, which seems toContinue reading “Fairy Tale”